No idea who’s even still following me here but whatever, this one will be more for myself.
It’s been a crazy 7 days. It sounds extremely cliche but this week was such a roller coaster of emotion. So here we are on the 7th day, and God said it was good.
It’s hard for me to ever think of a time where I had to do something that caused such a conflict between my mind and heart. I know I did the right thing, but it doesn’t feel right. At least not yet. I’m so close to turning around and taking back everything I said but I know I can’t so I won’t. Or will I?
No, I’ve made my decision and stuck with it. I’m going to feel absolutely awful about it for a few days for the short term and then It’ll all work out. I will look back on this with confidence. I will have no regrets. I will not turn back.
But I’m so weak now. Everything in my body tells me to go back and I don’t know if I have the strength to resist.
So I thank God now more than ever for the brothers that have kept me in check and supported me through my hardest of times. Thank you for these men that can speak truth into my life with sternness and love. Thank you for brothers that I can rely on. Thank you for brothers that care for and about me.
I will move past this and I won’t do it alone.